But I wouldn't be much of a friend if I didn't try to warn you. And you may think that you know what I mean but you don't.. I know at least that much of you that I know that you won't understand and it's kinda something you only learn through experience and is only learnt the hard way for some. Some meaning; us hard-headed people = p. And no, I refuse to stop giving you this 'plethora of cryptic clues' and maybe you'll blame me for it later, but seriously, you wouldn't change your mind even if I told you and I'd really not like to tell you.
I don't really know what to do, because everything I say to you, you'll probably take it the wrong way or take it offensively, because other than really wanting to shout at you and tell you that for once it's not me being naive, I think anything normal I say will come out wrong.. And if you take it the wrong way, again, I don't blame you.
So. I'm stuck in this place. And I think, yeah, I'll be a coward and send you a message to let you know I've written this instead of talking to you. but know that the reason I'm not talking to you isn't really your fault. You said; "Because you clearly have lost touch with who I am" It kinda has nothing to do with who you are. Or maybe it does. lol, unwittingly you kinda insulted me (my being) by that. but like. It's true, you're stronger than me. Yeah yeah, I'll stop it with your so called clues. They are not clues by the way. I do not want you to ever find out about this. Ugh. I hate thinking in circles. I do it so often it's really not funny. Because I understand both sides, I don't come to any solution. Really, it sucks. >sigh
If they say the choices in our lives define who we are, I must be a pretty crapped up person. Which I kinda am = p.
>sigh. Sorry. Yeah. and sorry. truly.
p.s I hope you haven't read this before I edited this.
